I didn't get around to posting yesterday. It was a hard day for me. Not only was I still on the strep train, waking up to bare cupboards, a broken dishwasher, a non-working oven, and many other problems sent me into an emotional black hole. I felt so incredibly empty. I found myself wishing I could
disappear into the floor I was laying on. It's been a long time since I felt so consumed by a seemingly never ending depression. Things just seem so hopeless at this point. I'm sure the lack in exercise is not helping my mood any.
yesterday's brunch:
a spoonful of eggs
bacon
burnt banana muffins (we tried to use the grill in place of the oven. Didn't work)
milk
yesterday's snack:
some crackers
yesterday's dinner:
some beef slop over rice (not yummy)
mixed vegetables
a few bites of jell-o
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I was unsure of how to proceed this week. I'm still getting over the whole strep thing, but I don't want to remain inactive any longer. It takes something like 3 weeks to make a habit and only three days to break it. It's been three days since I last ran. My resolve to change is already crumbling. I have the, "why bother?" attitude. My legs have been yearning for movement.
I set the alarm for 5:30 this morning and planned on picking up where I left off. I couldn't get up when it went off. I figure I still need rest or I'll just end up sick again. While nursing the baby this morning I mulled over my exercise options for the week. I'm
disappointed in this set back. In the end I opted to ease my way back in, starting with a walk this morning. The plan is to walk for a day or two and add running in as I'm feeling better. Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be able to pick up where I left off and do the
prescribed running for last Friday and Saturday. Then I'll be able to say I finished week 5 (
that'll make the longest "week" ever).
I took my new route this morning. It was probably too long for my first day out, but I wanted that hill! I didn't worry about speed. I just wanted to be moving again. My knees were in open rebellion for the first mile. Then they tightened up and seemed to be glad for mobility again.
breakfast:
oatmeal with brown sugar
1% milk
lunch:
I finished off the kids PB&J on wheat (not good, I know, but there was seriously nothing else)
snack:
I think I ate a cracker
jello
dinner:
chicken tacos
pineapple
FHE treat:
we made no bake cookies. I thought I could just have one, but ended up eating 3, and really wanted to go for 4. I decided I'd better check myself before I rationalized all two dozen.