Sunday again. It'd be restful if there wasn't always so much screaming and yelling in the house. Fighting, bickering, blah, blah, blah. Drama, drama, drama... toss in the other stresses of life and I want to run away! Far away.


breakfast:
my sweet hubby made waffles, with strawberries, and whipped cream (YUM! I feel my stomach expanding just thinking about them again)
1% milk

snack:
more of that caramel corn my mom made

lunch:
1 slice of Hawaiian pizza

snack:
that danged pop-corn! Why did my mom make it? Why would she do that to me and where is the self-control I thought I'd developed over the last month? Ugh.

dinner:
hamburger with cheese, lettuce, tomato, ketchup, mustard
baked beans (I'm sure they fall off the diet charts; sausage, bacon, green beans, b. sugar, tomato soup, wax beans, kidney beans, lima beans, onion, mustard.)
fresh pineapple (there's a fruit)

later:
stupid popcorn.

I can't believe I fell back into my old ways this weekend. I really feel like an addict of sorts. I thought I could just taste the popcorn. Just a little taste. Unfortunately it turned into lots, and lots, and LOTS of tastes. I knew it while I was eating it. Every time I opened the container I knew it, and I did it anyway. I've been in a slump for a couple days and I let it get to me. It's like I was punishing myself or something. It's like I was saying, "so what?" Bleh. I feel huge. I feel very full. I bet any progress I made this last week is null and void at this point. I'll be lucky if I don't have a weight gain. And I worked so hard this week! I pushed myself a little faster, a little longer. What a waste.

I guess tomorrow I'll have to start over. Ugh. To go through the "withdrawals" and the constant nagging thoughts and habitual snacking again. Not fun the first time. Now I have to go through it again. CRAZY STUPID!

I didn't get up early (2 kids with strep kept us up in the night), but I managed to get my run in after breakfast. Run 11 min./walk 1 and repeat, plus some extra to get to 5k. 500+ calories burned. Yea! My knees have started hurting. I've started popping Tylenol to combat it. I wonder what weight I have to get under before the hurt lessens.


breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds


snack:
apple


lunch:
pulled chicken sandwich with cheese and pickles
a handful of the caramel corn Mom made (new recipe, had to try it. Probably shouldn't have, because now I want MORE)

snack:
more caramel corn! Ugh. I have been noshing on it all day! I've totally relapsed into my sugar/snacking habit today. I feel yucky, fat, and it makes it seem hopeless again. I feel like its truly an addiction. I guess I'll be an addict for life. Let my guard down for a bit and WHAM! I'm back to old habits. I'm sure I'll pay for this on the scale come Tuesday. I'll be lucky if I haven't gained weight.

dinner:
Stuart made breakfast for dinner: scrambled eggs, 2 pieces of bacon (low sodium), 2 homemade biscuits (one with honey, one with low sugar strawberry jam), a couple of orange slices, 1% milk. NOT a very healthy dinner. Today was not a good eating day. Probably totally undid my workout and then some. Bleh. I regret this day. No wonder some people are bulimic. Ugh. Time for bed. One of these days I'm going to get in bed before 11 pm. Not likely to happen while the dishwasher is on the fritz and I'm hand washing everything. It'll be midnight before I crawl into bed. I'm SOOOOOO tired.

I stayed up waaaaay too late last night, so I didn't get up this morning. I planned on running during the baby's morning nap, but all the whites in the dryer weren't actually dry yet, so I'm waiting. Waiting for dry socks so I can run.


breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats
a handful of trailmix squares out of mom's snack basket.


Running for today: run 10 min/walk 1 and repeat until I hit 3.2 miles (5k) Still hard to do. I'm running at a 5.4 for a little longer, I don't jiggle quite as much. I guess I'm getting better. I had never really considered running a marathon before, but yesterday I passed a car with a "26.2" sticker on the back windshield. I thought to myself, "I want that sticker!" Hmmm....we'll see. At this point I can't imagine running for 4-5 hours straight. I'll stick to getting a 5k down first.

lunch:

leftover pulled chicken sandwich with cheese and pickles

fruit salad

snack:

graham crackers

snack:

Trail Mix bites. Probably too many of them.

Dinner:

Ugh. I totally pigged out. 3 pieces of pizza. 2 glasses of rootbeer. I feel huge. Bleh. Why do I do this to myself? I didn't get any fruits and vegetables in today. Have to do better tomorrow.

Went for a walk this morning. Took the dog for the first time. He did okay. It was 2+ miles. I thought it'd be enough to tire him out, but he still ran up and down the fence line barking at kids and chewed up Camden's brown Sunday shoe.

I'm trying to get my kids to be more fitness conscious. As part of their morning routine I have them run a lap around the block (.2 miles). This morning I went with them. I didn't think it'd be a big deal. I run that everyday no problem on the treadmill. It was hard to run outside! A LOT harder. I've got work to do...

breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats

lunch:
I munched a bit while I made the kids' lunches. Some bread, some turkey. I finally got around to eating a roast beef and cheese on white. I meant to have a piece of fruit as well, but didn't get around to it.

dinner:
pulled chicken sandwich with cheese, pickles
baked beans
corn
fruit salad (cottage cheese, whipped cream, mandarin oranges, pineapple, raspberry jell-o)

later:
OJ

breakfast:
baked oatmeal
1% milk


I prayed really hard for my knees this morning. They held up during the run. It hurt some, but they made it. I popped some Tylenol afterwards. On the schedule today; run 9 min/walk 1 and repeat. I ran extra so I'd hit 3.2 miles. It was a hard run at the end.


lunch:
apple
turkey and cheese on white, no mayo
still hungry


snack:
Light, fat-free yogurt (although, I read the label today and realized its full of aspartame, and high fructose corn syrup). The chocolate cake in the fridge is calling to me. The yogurt didn't take the edge off. Must resist!

dinner:
Sweet Pork burritos (thanks UVMOM), with homemade tortillas

later:
Oh! I caved! The kids had cake after dinner and dished me up a piece. I left it on the counter with the intention of tossing it when they couldn't see, but I snuck a bite when I was doing the dishes and that was more than I could handle. I ate it all! Arrrg! Those calories were hard earned this morning. I probably wolfed them all back on in a matter of minutes. I think my sides are lapping farther over my waist band than they were this morning. Grrrr.....

OJ with the pills

Weigh in #5

I'm down another 2 lbs! Isn't that amazing?! I'm so nervous to get on the scale every week. I'm surprised every week to see another loss. It's great. I started this journey just over a month ago and I am now 11 lbs. lighter. Sweet!


I am worried about my knees. The run yesterday made them tired. Playing wiffle ball at the family picnic did them in. I ran too fast. Quick starts and stops, uneven terrain, I fell and hit hard on my right knee once. It was really fun, but I'm paying for it today. I hope they get better and there isn't any long term damage to sideline me. Today was a "walk easy" day on my running schedule. I took it quite literally. I didn't even work up a sweat. Usually when I walk after a run, my knees feel loose and a little clumsy, but they eventually get comfortable and I speed up. Today they never reached that point. I figure it was good just to get them in motion. Hopefully they'll be up for a run tomorrow.


breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats

lunch:
turkey and cheese on white, no mayo
apple

snack:
Capri Sun

dinner:
hubby brought Subway to Madilyn's T-ball game. It was roasted chicken something or other. It was yummy! I ate the whole thing. He said it was the healthiest thing on their menu.

late:
OJ

3.2 BABY!

I did it! I hit the 5k mark! Wahoo! It took me just under 41 minutes and included my 5 minute warm up, but I got there. I also broke 500 calories! Hopefully that'll take care of the cake I ate last night (I didn't get around to posting yesterday. My eating wasn't so great to say the least), and boost my metabolism for all the family get-togethers today (it's Memorial Day. Henry's for brunch, Arnold's for dinner). Wahoo!!!!!

breakfast:
apple

brunch:
I didn't do well with my eating today. I ate 3 pieces of coffee cake, 3 bites of kielbasa, some eggs, a bunch of fruit, 1 piece of bacon, some milk, some OJ

dinner:
hamburger with cheese, baked beans, green salad (with vinaigrette), several bites of grilled chicken, watermelon, a glass of soda

later:
OJ

Hopefully I didn't totally destroy my hard work this morning, but I wouldn't be surprised if I did. My knees are achy, good thing its a walk day tomorrow.