I'm not going to go in to the details of last week, or yesterday. Let's just say I need to find a new word that's worse than abysmal. Today's a weigh-in day. Gained a pound. Surprised it was 10. I keep expecting to see the dreaded 200 on the scale... anyhoo.



Pre-workout snack:

1 slice wheat toast w/ PB (180)

My good eating lasted until mid-afternoon, at which point I caved to the munchies and chocolate milk that was in the house. I did fine at dinner, but was hungry and bed time and instead of just going to bed, I thought, "oh, chocolate milk won't hurt" Dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb (to the tune of the old Tums commercial)!

Okay. Not the best week for exercise, or food. I can see my face getting rounder as my jaw line merges with my neck, and my gut plumps up and spreads farther out into my lap. Can one say collosial failure? *sigh*

I went to Zumbatoning this morning. And I ate a descent breakfast. I have to have bloodwork done and visit the doctor in the next two weeks. It's so embarrassing to go and have to show how much I've gained instead of lost. *sigh again*

Weigh-in Day

Last week's routine was thrown off in preparation for and the duration of my trip to Denver! I got up at the awful hour of 5:30 am to go walking with my mom while I was there, still it only resulted in 3 days of exercise for the week. The trip was grrrrreat!

I was terrified to step on the scale this morning. Given last week's 5 lb. weight gain, and the delicious restaurants and yummy food prepared by my mom last week. I mustered up the courage and was surprised to see I'd dropped 4 lbs. Kind of amazing. Not sure how it happened.

This morning was the first day of school, which means it's time for mom to get back to her early morning routine. The alarm went off at 6 am, and I made it out the door by 6:30. Scriptures are at 7, so not enough time for a long run, but I got a couple miles in (in the literal sense of a "couple" meaning 2). It was chilly and windy. WINDY. I am not a fan of the wind. My ears always hurt by the time I get home from the wind blowing in them.

So, I did okay at breakfast, two pieces of wheat toast with peanut butter. Higher in calories and carbs than I should, but we're desperate for a trip to the store. Lunch kind of got away from me. At least the discipline part of it. I at 2- ugh! It's worse in print- that's TWO grilled cheese sandwiches and an apple. And I really just want to keep eating.

I was up late working last night. This home crafty business thing is going to kill me. I'm not even sure it's going to provide the $90/month I need to pay for preschool for the twins. I overslept and missed Pilates this morning. It's going to kill me next week for sure!

It's official. I'm going to be fat forever. I managed to gain 5 lbs. this week. I didn't expect progress because of last week's limited activity and good food binge, but I didn't expect to gain 5 lbs. I ran/walked today. *sigh*

Got to run in Park City this weekend. I was excited to run in a new place. Especially after several days off due to a cut on my toe that prevented me from wearing shoes. The altitude caught me off guard a little. I didn't expect it to be much different. It was a great run! Lasted about an hour, however far that took me. Now I was up there for a girls' weekend get away, which was GREAT, however, I ate my weight in delicious foodstuffs. I was so tired that I didn't get up this morning to run either. I'll have to do better tomorrow.

I'm in a funk these days. Too much life. I slept in yesterday, and even though my husband was home, I skipped my run. My eating was okay though. This morning I got my butt kicked at Pilates. Now for the eating. Cream of Wheat for breakfast. We'll see how the rest of the day goes. I don't know if I have it in me today...

I am so tired of the limitations in my kitchen. I am tired of saying okay, I have this meat I can use for dinner, trying to find recipes for it and not having ingredients to make anything. I am so tired of having my cupboards void of things that should be staples in the kitchen; chicken broth (or even granuals for that matter), soy sauce, teriyaki, basil, canned beans, canned pineapple, mandarin oranges, chicken breasts, mushrooms, olives, parmesean (any kind of cheese but cheddar blocks)... the list goes on. Today, I was looking for something to make with sausage. Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING required a staple ingredient that I haven't had in my kitchen for months. We ended up with southern biscuits and gravy that are now residing like a lead brick in my stomach. How is one suppose to loose weight with this hurdle?

I ruined any good I did last week by looking for and making a doughnut recipe, that was irressistable. I made the recipe twice, once with my husband on Saturday night to see if it was any good, and again on Sunday with the kids. Great. Way. To. Go. So, I got up and went running this morning. Took a big break in the middle. I found a shady spot to pray and ponder over one of life's dilemmas, and then ran home. I made it up the dang hill! I had decided I wasn't going to eat any of the left over doughnuts, that decision lasted until I walked through the door. *sigh* The lack of will power is mind boggling.

I did kind of okay on my eating yesterday. Unless you count the four cookies I snitched, and the ice-cream I ate after dinner, oh and we went to a Chinese Buffet for our last date ever. It wasn't even good. Well, the ice-cream was. So were the cookies. Anyhoo... I went running this morning! Yeah for me! Somewhere between 3 and 4 miles. I did walk a chunk of it, but most of it was spent running.

Now for the eating portion of my day. It's such a long portion of the day. I started with a bowl of Raisin Bran, which I don't particularly like, but the only other option is Cheerios and that gets boring after a while. And it has more protein, but it also has higher mush potential. Bleh. The memory is getting worse as I type this. I think I may need something else to change the taste in the back of my throat.

I missed my exercise yesterday. I slept in because I was up so late the night before, and the evening was given to working at my little biz. Eating was not what it should have been either.

This morning I went to Zumba Toning. Eating well so far. We'll see if I can keep it up. 11:30 and I'm ready to run away from the children. Far, far, away...

Ouch! Pilates hurts...

That being said, I didn't do too bad with my eating yesterday. Now for today...

Weigh-in Day

I have no idea what number I'm on since I stopped counting months ago. Probably 60 or 70 something. Anyhoo...

I was so scared to step on the scale this morning. I was certain I had gained weight and was afraid of gaining enough to see the dreaded 200 flash upon my scale. I imagined myself spending the day curled up in a ball crying over my abysmal failure. Instead I was surprised to see that I'd lost 2 pounds! I'm really in disbelief, so I'm finding myself with a reserved excitement over it. That Zumba/Dance party must have burned literally a ka-jillion calories. I've certainly been sore enough.

This morning I got up and went running. I rolled my ankle on Friday, it didn't start bothering me until I wore heals to church yesterday. So I walked extra long in the beginning to ensure I was good and warmed up. It was buggin' for the first few blocks, but I took care to ensure my form was correct and paid close attention to how it was feeling. The discomfort disappeared, and all in all it was a good run. Not long. Just shy of 3 miles if you include all the walking. My ankle feels it now though.

So, now for the nutrition portion of fitness. Yesterday was horrible, lets see if I can do better today...

OINK!

Zumba Mania!

Saturday was the first ever National Day of Dance. To celebrate, my local fitness center, Elevate, put on a big shin dig, culminating in a 2+ hour Zumba fest. They had teachers from all over the state, as well as the creator of Zumba, and we got our groove on for a looooooong time. I made it through the whole two hours with some energy to spare, but I am sure feeling it now. OUCH! I'm sore. Of course I ruined my calorie burning fest with caramel corn over indulgence yesterday. I'm an addict you know...

Anyway... I was up really late last night, so I didn't make it up for my run this morning. We'll see if I manage to squish it in later. I haven't been very good about that. Started off the day with a carb bomb waffle. Good way to start the week :/