I did about 4.2 miles this morning. I ran the first three. I couldn't make it up the long hill at the start of the fourth mile, so I walked it. Then I couldn't get started again. I tried, but it just wasn't in me. I'm kind of disappointed. Those hills are quickly becoming my nemesis.

Running was harder this morning. Probably because I was so tired. Probably because I got out later, and it was getting warm, and I didn't have water with me. I kept telling myself, "you can do this. Run out of the 2's. You can do this. Your body was made from the same basic blueprint as people who run marathons! Keep going." I tried to stay positive. A line from my patriarchal blessing kept popping into my head (I had to look it up for exact wording), "You will have the ability to attain to what you want most in life. So seek for the very best." I need to take a minute to read the rest of it. I haven't in a long time.


breakfast:
oatmeal with 1 T of brown sugar, topped with strawberries and raspberries
1% milk

lunch:
roasted chicken on white, with lettuce, cheese, and tomato
grapes

snack:
nectarine
a couple graham crackers

dinner:
Ugh. We roasted hot dogs in the fire pit (I had mustard on mine), baked beans, a handful of chips, cantaloupe, a glass of kool-aid

I did, however, resist the temptation of the s'mores the kids were making.

Weigh in #11

I haven't given up. I'm just trying to spend less time on the computer. I haven't been that successful, but there has been improvement. That said, today was a weigh in day. It was disappointing. I gained 7 of the 8 lbs. from last week's loss back. I expected to gain some back since last week's weigh in was coming off a flu bug, but I was really hoping to stay out of the 2's. Really hoping it. I just can't seem to get under 2 and stay there. Never, in all my attempts have I managed it. I was really hoping it'd be different this time. I get so tired of loosing the same pounds over and over again. In my body's defense, I haven't fed it well this week. Fourth of July indulgences were a caloric nightmare. I've fallen into old eating habits in a big way. I really need to rededicate myself to healthier eating. Hard to do with zero grocery budget, but I can eat less, and I can control the sweets. At least that's what I tell myself. I need to. I've done it before. I can do it again.

pre-workout snack:
banana

I ran, ran, ran this morning. I figure it was about 4 miles. Maybe a little under because I skipped one of the hills. I wanted to be able to walk the rest of the week. I did a different hill instead. Other than that alteration it was the same as the route I did last Tuesday, which was 4.2 miles. Gotta run out of the 2's.

breakfast:
frosted mini wheats with fresh raspberries and 1 % milk

lunch:
there wasn't much left after the kids ate, a couple pieces of ham, half a cheese stick

snack:
low-fat raspberry yogurt
2 little graham cracker pieces

dinner:
we splurged on Subway to take to the ballpark. Not fiscally responsible, but there was nothing in the house, and it was yummy. I chose from their lite menu; sweet onion chicken teriyaki something. I was sooooo hungry I ate the 12 incher! A few apple slices, and a few bites of yogurt.

later:
OJ

I'm hungry, and tired. I stayed up too late working on a blog post for Wrigley's first year. Today is her 1st birthday. I feel badly about not doing anything to celebrate it. I know she doesn't care, but I do. I haven't finished the post yet, but I got the pictures uploaded. Oh! I'm so tired. It's almost midnight! Time for bed...

Weigh-in #10

I'm breaking my code of silence to report the results of my weekly weigh-in. I lost a whopping 8 lbs!!!!!! I'm sure a good portion of that is due to the stomach bug I've had for the last couple days, but oh my freakin' gosh!!!! Wow. I stepped on the scale several times to make sure I wasn't seeing things. I was just hoping to have not gained anything this week. I'm sooooo excited. I had to wake Stuart up to tell him. The last time my weight was this low was a couple weeks after I had my tonsils out and a week or two before I found out I was pregnant for the third time (that's pre-twins). That puts a "1" in front. Wahoo! Now if I can just keep it off over the next week as I go back to regular eating. I'm sure the s'mores indulgence at Family Home Evening won't help me in that endeavor (it was easily 1000 calories). I'll have to be vigilant this week. No more "2's"! I wonder if the pants in my closet fit...?

Week 7 Ends

I haven't felt like posting. I've hit a wall. It's been really hard to care. I've had a few slip ups in the diet. Running on the treadmill is soooooooo boring. I have exercised every day. On my walk day I took the kids to the local river trail. I doubt it was very good cardio, but it was enjoyable for a change. Today I ran the trail. Madilyn followed me on her bike. I didn't get to actually run as much as I wanted to, because Madilyn kept stopping for water, or potty breaks. I know I did a mile and a half without stopping. We did about 3 miles total. I figure I ran 2 of them. I hope my joints (especially my hip) holds up. It's much more gratifying to see the physical distance you cross as opposed to ticking off numbers on the treadmill. On my way to the start of the trail I clocked it in the car. From my driveway to the parking lot at the Sports Park is exactly 3.2 miles. I would have thought it was much farther. I run that and more every day! I'm thinking of having Stuart meet me with the kids at the park on Saturday mornings and run there. When I envision myself running, its always outside. This treadmill thing is uninspiring. So, I'm not sure if I hit the time targets for today's run (it was suppose to be 26 minutes at a time), but it was so much more enjoyable, and sorely needed to inspire me to go on.

Weigh in #9

I gained a pound (although after my workout and a trip to the bathroom I'd lost it again, but that probably doesn't count). I'm not surprised. I could feel it. I am really disappointed. I've worked out really hard this past week. I haven't missed a day (except two days for strep throat) since I started this program. I'm running faster, and longer every day. I assume it has to do with diet. I've been having dessert again. I'm not snacking, but I have second helpings sometimes. Mostly at dinner. I've hit the yo-yo range I've been in for years. I loose a pound, gain a pound, but never get out of the trap. I feel hopeless. The time I have to exercise, and what I know and can do diet wise isn't good enough. I've gone from averaging -2lbs. a week to haggling over this same pound all month long. It's very discouraging. I just feel like I'll be fat forever. I hope this doesn't have anything to do with being off my thyroid meds.

Tuesdays have been a walk day throughout this program. Today it became another run day. Hopefully the added day will help.

breakfast:
oatmeal with a little brown sugar and strawberries
1% milk

lunch:
yucky little turkey and cheese rolls with Tzitki sauce
a few sour grapes

dinner:
a blah ham and cheese sandwich

I consoled my grumpy mood about the pound I gained by eating munchies leftover from FHE last night. Way to go. Fabulous. Where's the will power?

Week 7

I wasn't sure how week 7 would start off. I was up really late (it was Father's Day after all), and the baby was up at 6 (she's been doing that a lot lately). I was sooooo tired. I decided to eat a little something to help boost my energy before my workout. The run actually wasn't bad. I started doing some hip exercises to help get myself in shape for outdoor running.

snack:
banana

breakfast:
waffles with strawberries (no butter)
1 % milk

lunch:
big salad (romaine, tomato, carrot, jack cheese, honey mustard dressing)
a couple bites of a roll

snack:
yogurt

dinner:
waffles with strawberries (it was so yummy I couldn't resist)
1% milk

FHE treat:
peanut butter marshmallow munchies (I ate several. Probably negated my entire workout. I have a feeling tomorrow's weigh in is going to be disappointing.)

I'm up way too late. Time for bed. Tomorrow brings an additional run day for my weekly routine.

I have a feeling today's run is going to be hard. I was up until 1 am last night (grocery shopping so we'd have breakfast), and back up at 6:30 ish with the baby. I really just want to go back to bed. Soooooo tired.

breakfast:
Honey Bunches of Oats with 1/2 a banana and cut up strawberries

The run wasn't so bad. Week six is complete.

lunch:
plain old boring turkey and cheese on white
an orange

dinner:
beef stew (two helpings, arrrrg)
2 slices of bread

I sooooo want something desserty. It's been a rainy day and I just want to curl up with a good movie and a yummy treat!