Back Where I Started...

...almost anyway. I'm where I was 1 year ago next week. I year of hard work gone. All because I can't keep my eating under control. I'm waaaaay too close to 200 lbs. again. I never want to see that number again. Not for any reason. Including any potential pregnancy. I had gotten to the point where a size 14 was too big, but then it became tight, and now my 16's are snug. I have to get back on the ball before I have to drag the 18's out of the closet.

I've kept exercising, albeit, it's been inconsistent and lackluster, but I've been eating like a cow. I never did make 10k. I couldn't afford the entry fees this Summer, and kind of gave up. I was running about 4 miles every time I ran. I also played on a softball team this season, and I'm still going to Zumba and Pilates. I think I've become complacent. The size and weight I'd reached became "good enough" and I slacked off. I felt entitled to eat treats because I was working so hard. It's a drug. Sugar, I mean. There are days when I don't want to eat anything else but cookies. I'm suppose to be avoiding bad carbs and starches. That's why I'm on Glucophage, I have metabolic syndrome. It's a precursor to diabetes. I have to get my BMI down to 26 or I'm a total shoe in for the dreaded disease.

I quit writing, and keeping a food log because it's so time consuming, and sometimes life just gets in the way. I've been so busy with starting my own little business in an attempt to ease our financial famine. Add that to keeping up (barely, if at all) with 5 children, and trying to endure the stress and depression that comes with our current life circumstances, and it's just hard. I feel like I'm just falling through life. Food is hard too. Given our lot in life at the moment, I don't have much choice in the grocery department. What's available for our selection, is not the healthiest of choices. Not the most appetizing either, but I'm grateful to have something to feed my children, even as it expands our waistlines.

So, I'm making another attempt. No big, lofty goals at the moment, just to do what needs to be done every day. I went running this morning. Nothing big. Maybe 2 miles, but it was a good run. Now for the eating part of healthy living...

On the Way to 10k

I ran 5 miles this evening! 5 miles in under an hour. I don't remember the exact time. 50 something minutes. I was on the treadmill for a total of 68 minutes, 5.6 miles, and 831 calories. AND I did it at 11:00 pm. Late, I know, but I've missed the last two days due to illness, and late nights. My legs were driving me crazy from inactivity. I HAD to get a run in. Just happened to be a good one. I watched Project Runway, my new fave show, to pass the time. The only thing better would have been running outside. The weather has been perfect lately, during the day that is, but I never have anyone home to watch the kids so I can take advantage of it. But, I'm getting closer to 10k! Now, if I can just be more consistent in diet and exercise. For now, I'm beat. It's after midnight. I've got to shower and sleep so I can go to ZUMBA in the morning. It's going to be rough with only a few hours of recovery.

Weigh-in #42

Somehow I lost another pound this week. It can't be due to diet and exercise, because inspite of my great run last Tuesday, I ate crappy, slept horribly, and only exercised 3 of six days. It must be that I had a flu bug yesterday. I'm amazed and greatful. Now I have to work to earn that pound this week. As soon as I'm feeling 100% again...

Also, Stuart said he signed us up for his 15 year reunion this Summer. Ugh. That means I have until then to loose the rest of this weight. The weather is turning nice, I need to figure out how to get myself outside again. The treadmill is soooo unappealing these days. NO more excuses! NO more binging on candy! Time to drop the weight and tone this body. Swimsuit season is just around the corner.

Five

I wanted to note that I logged 5 miles on the treadmill last night. I didn't run all of it, but I wish I had. I walked .2 miles for warm up, and stopped running around 4.6, I think. It was a good run. 700 calories, 5 miles, and 60 minutes. My left hip is giving me grief this morning (that sounds so old lady), but worth it.

Weigh-in #41

I lost 3 lbs! Amazing! I exercised 5 out of 6 days last week, and tried to be careful with what I ate, even if I didn't get my calories counted every day (it's so tedious, and time consuming). Incredible. I don't know if I believe it. I stepped on the scale several times. I wasn't expecting it. This puts me right where I was before Christmas break (that only lasted until the first family party). 3 months to recover from Christmas. Other than that week, I haven't been here, since before I was pregnant with Chloe. That's been 11+ years! Let's see if I can keep it off this week. I'm having such a hard time keeping the fire going. I missed my workout this morning. I was up late last night. I'll have to squish it in this afternoon.

Weigh-in #40

No change in weight today. I'm extreamly grateful after my weekend birthday party binging. Three miles on the treadmill this morning. Just shy of 500 calories burned.

breakfast (298):
egg wrap (243)
1/2 c. OJ (55)

snack (160):
apple
string cheese

lunch (303):
1 slice wheat bread (90)
1 t. fat-free mayo (3)
1 t. cranberry (10)
1/2 c. shredded turkey (105)
small orange (45)
5 pecan halves (50)

This day started good and ended bad. That's all I'm gonna say.

breakfast:
protein shake (290)


zumba


snack (160):
apple (100)
reduced calorie string cheese (60)

lunch (377):
romaine (8)
broiled chicken (192)
3/4 c. mango-avocado salsa (137)
crasins (40?)

snack (300):
10 pecan halves (100)
Shared a frozen yogurt with Wrigley at a health food store while waiting for my car to be inspected (200???)

dinner (466):
Skillet Chicken Italiano (286)
garlic bread (180?)

1593. No room for FHE treat, and I had to take my vitamins with water instead of OJ : (