Day One of Starting Over

I started out right by getting up and exercising. I ran 2 miles in 30 minutes. I could have done more, but I'm opting to ease my way back in. Eating was more of a challenge. I didn't make wise choices all the time (that dang chocolate orange in the cupboard). Which is sad considering I stepped on the scale again today and have gained another 3 lbs. since Saturday. That means I had to eat upwards of 12,000 calories over the weekend. That's 9 lbs. in a week. It will take me two months to loose that. Good grief.

Starting Over

I feel awful. This month has been difficult, but I've been completely undisciplined over the last two weeks. I discovered that 30 weeks of hard work and habit forming can be undone in a matter of days. I've exercised no self-control whatsoever in the last week. As the days wore on I regressed further and further until I've at last found myself behaving just the way I did at Easter time this past Spring, gorging myself on sweets, and candy. Not even tasting them anymore, just stuffing in as much as I can. Only this time I know the calorie count. I finally (thanks in part to a weekend of the flu) get to the half-way point, and I reward myself by downing enough calories to gain 6 lbs. in less than a week (It took me a month and a half to loose that 6 lbs.). That was yesterday. Apparently it wasn't deterrent enough, because I've eaten an enormous amount of junk since I stepped on the scale. I'm an addict. Will I ever conquer? Will there ever be a time where I can have a couple cookies and that will be enough, or will it always be all or nothing. Will a candy bar at Halloween always set me off on month long (or in this case holiday season long) eating binges? To make matters worse I haven't exercised in over a week. The week before Christmas brought in family, shopping trips, sick kids, holiday parties, and many a night up until 2 am. Something had to give and it was exercise. The habit is broken. I don't even feel like starting it up again, but I feel so awful! My stomach is so bloated. Bleh. I feel like I could barf. I kind of wish I could. I have a feeling that re-forming the habit, is going to be harder than starting it the first time. I'm going to expect that I can run forever. I'm sure that a week off is going to make running difficult and not fun. We'll find out in the morning. I'm not waiting for New Year's Day. Bring on the withdrawals, bring on the headaches, heaving lungs, and tired legs. I'm going to bed early and recommitting to healthy living in the morning.

Weigh-in #33: Half Way???

I almost didn't weigh-in this morning. I wasn't expecting anything good to flash back at me from the scale. I haven't been counting calories. Working out was rough last week due to kids school projects. I think I managed four days. I've had some calorie/carb laden days. Yesterday was my birthday, my Dad brought me lunch, Stuart brought home dinner. Calories and sodium galore. My fingers are still swollen from it all, and I'm not even pregnant! I have been hitting four miles on my runs, and staying on the treadmill for closer to an hour. So that's good. I've felt so fat lately. BUT when I stepped on the scale this morning I'd lost 4 lbs! I stepped on and off a bunch of times. 4 lbs? That puts me into the next group of 10. I'm not sure I believe it. Not only am I coming off a streak of non-discipline, but the batteries are wearing out in the scale. If it's still gone next week I think I'll be more excited. Right now I'm in disbelief. Grateful, but wary. If it's true, then I've passed the half way mark. 40 lbs. down, 34 to go...

Weigh-in #32

I lost that pound again. I'm not off to a good start keeping it off til' next week. I was up late, so I over slept. It took me 3 hours to get the kids to school! I'm a seasonal eater. When it's cold I want warm, heavy things. I made banana muffins for breakfast. I don't know how many calories they were or how many I ate. Probably half a dozen. I had leftover chicken pot-pie for lunch. I'm sure I've reached my calorie intake for the day already. There's so much snow, and it's so cold, this day is pretty much a bust.

Counting calories is proving to be difficult. It's so time consuming! Plus I don't have a lot of control over what's in the house at the moment.


breakfast (455):
granola cereal (305)
hot chocolate (150)


lunch (272):
tortilla (150)
cheese (65)
lettuce (1)
tomato (4)
chicken (50)
salsa (2)


snack:
chocolate cake, and milk (probably some awful amount)
and hot chocolate. Wouldn't want my hour on the treadmill to be effective.

dinner:
chicken pot-pie and more hot chocolate.
I don't know how many calories were in the pot pie, but I'm sure waaaay too many.

I blew my good eating day last night. I had some calories left so I grabbed a handful of granola, which turned into several handsful, and I washed it down with chocolate milk. I also missed my run because of other projects. Here's hoping for a better day.


breakfast (273):
granola cereal

lunch:
tuna salad
apples

RS dinner:
a dab funeral potatoes
lots of spinach salad (yum)
carrots
turkey
ham
chocolate cake
pumpkin something
hot chocolate

I have no idea the calorie count for the day. I did exercise. Burned 500 + calories, but it was a frustrating workout. I'm getting these horrible side aches that keep me from running for more than a few minutes at a time. I got my four miles in, but it took forever!

breakfast (273):
1/2 c. granola
1/4 c. 2% milk



lunch (459):
soft taco (317)
1 c. grapes (62)
1/2 c. delicious chocolate milk (80)
That chocolate milk was costly, and now I'm craving more! Must. Be. Strong...


snack (185):
med. apple (95)
1 T. peanut butter (90)


dinner (445):
tuna salad on white (300???)
pears (80)
carrot sticks (25)
1 mini reese's cup (40)


1362.

Weigh-in #31

Gained a pound. The same pound I've been gaining and loosing for the past month. I wasn't expecting a loss due to Thanksgiving indulgences, but I was hoping for a neutral weigh-in. No dice. Hopefully next week.


breakfast (240):
cheerios
2% milk


lunch (412):
turkey salad on white (335)
small apple (77)

dinner (688):
2 soft tacos (634)
1 c. cantaloupe (54)

1340