Weigh-in #23

I have been so discouraged in the past couple weeks. I tried mixing up my exercise a bit. I've added strength training every other day (short run if any on those days). I didn't want to get on the scale this morning, but I talked myself into it, and braced myself for more bad news. I was very surprised to see my weight down by three pounds! I'm amazed, and yet in disbelief. I did better last week, but I'm just so afraid it'll be back next week. I've been bouncing up and down so much in the last month or so. I'm not seeing a change in myself anymore. I hope, hope, HOPE its still gone next weigh-in. The loss was encouraging for my run this morning. I think it was about 4 miles. I did have a short walk somewhere at the end of the 3rd mile. I was barely running at that point anyway. After the break I picked the pace back up. Here's hoping for another good week!

Weigh-in #22

I gained another pound at yesterday's weigh-in. It's so depressing.

Weigh-in #21: Back Tracking

This past week has been my worst since I started this journey. Wrigley was sick, so I spent several nights up for hours. The result being little or no sleep, which led to no energy for a workout. The two days I ran were really good runs. REALLY good. I went farther, faster (about a 10 minute mile), made it up one of my nemesis hills... but I only ran twice. I attempted a third run, but was dumb enough to take the dog and he could not keep up to save his life. I walked 2/3 of the route that night. To make matters worse I didn't eat well. I totally binged on cookies twice this week. I'd say to myself, "one won't hurt" and before I knew it I'd downed half a dozen. Looks like I don't have a handle on the sugar problem after all. I'm going to have to give it up totally again. I can't be trusted.


So, I really didn't want to step on the scale this morning. I mean really didn't want to. I debated not, but I did. I wasn't expecting good news. I expected no loss and maybe a small gain, but I wasn't expecting to gain 3 lbs. 3 LBS!!! That puts me back into old territory. I've been here before. Several times. Am I ever going to break it? EVER? Am I destined to be fat for the rest of my life? Can I keep an exercise habit for more than 4-5 months? Can I eat well long enough to get my body where I want it to be? Can I give up the crappy food and lazy habits so that my spirit can be happy? Can I do it in time? I don't know if I'm strong enough.


I need to shake up my workout some. My body has plateaued. It took me a month to loose what I use to drop in a week. Plus it's getting kind of boring. I just hate to give up running every day when I worked so hard to be able to do so. What to do??? I don't have a bike, or access to weight training equipment. I don't even have the ability to play a workout video. Hmmmm...


I slept in today. I'll be gone this evening so I knew I had to get a workout in during the day. The weather was too beautiful, and the twins too restless to hit the treadmill, so I loaded the kids into the stroller and went for a long walk. Hopefully it was good for something. My arms are tired from pushing over 100 lbs. of kids and stroller. It really was a beautiful day. The weather is so great this time of year! I wish I had a triple tandem jogger. And some new shoes. I desperately need new running shoes. Things are starting to hurt, my feet included, when I run.


breakfast:
a bowl of Cheerios with fresh strawberries
1% milk


snack:
a fresh peach
a small handful of almonds

Hit and Miss Kind of Week

This week has not been my best for exercise. Wrigley has been sick, and therefore, I have not been sleeping. I missed Monday. Ran Tuesday morning, missed Wednesday because I was up most of the night. I slept in this morning because I was so tired. I found myself reasoning way to easily that I could miss again this evening, so I went running. It was a good run. When I got home, I felt like I could keep going, so I did. I think I did about 4 miles. I think I could have gone even longer. I wish I had. I'm going to have to get an extra workout in sometime. I don't want to go less than 5 days. Even if its just walking, I need to get out.

Weigh-in #20: New Territory

I stepped on the scale cautiously this morning, bracing myself for an expected weight gain at worst, no change at best. Amazingly I'd lost 3 lbs! I couldn't believe it. I had to double check. It was still gone the second time I stepped on the scale! I still don't quite believe it. That's as much as I lost during the whole month of August. I haven't been at this weight since some time before I was pregnant with Chloe. That's 11 years! I'm excited and yet afraid it won't stay gone. I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep it off. I haven't been careful with my eating. I'm not nursing anymore, so I don't have that leeway in the calorie intake. I have still been running. On Saturday I went for my longest run yet. I ran across town 4 and a half miles or so. From my house to my sister-in-law's house. That's been a goal of mine for a while. I hit another goal today- I made it up the long hill! I have a few other places I'd like to run before the weather changes; Provo Canyon (to the falls), Hobble Creek Canyon, I'd like to do another 5 k... Let's see if I can get my mind set back and see what I can accomplish.

breakfast:
honey bunches of oats

snack:
pumpkin bread

lunch:
tuna sandwich
Cheetos (ugh)

snack:
I gave in and pieced at a Hershey bar. In the end I ate half a GIANT sized bar!

dinner:
1.5 soft tacos

Went running. Gone for an hour. Walked 1 mile, ran 2, walked half a mile, ran 1.something, walked up and down the street to cool down. I probably should have doubled that since I binged on CHOCOLATE! Do I want to stay fat or what?

Weigh-in #19

I'm doing a terrible job logging in each day! There's just other things I want to get done. This just seems to zap too much of my precious time. No loss, no gain this week. I have to say I'm a bit disappointed. This whole month has been disappointing. Workouts have been difficult to get through. It's been hard to eat right. I'd only been losing a pound a week. With no loss this week that makes for little change this month. I don't feel like I'm changing anymore. Frustrating. My body can't be happy at this weight. I'm still incredibly fat! Anyhoo... I'll keep plugging along. I need to find a new training schedule. I think I'm bored of mine. I like having a piece of paper that tells me what to do as opposed to stepping out the door and saying, "Where am I going to run today..."


On another note. My right knee started hurting during mile 3 last night. I pressed on, but it's still bothering me today. That concerns me. I hope I'm not injured. I may be walking it out tonight.


breakfast:
frosted mini wheats
1 slice pumpkin bread

lunch:
leftover greek pita sandwich stuff

snack:
yogurt

dinner:
tuna sandwich
carrots
cheetos

Ran on treadmill for 30 minutes. Did some other exercises.