It's official. I'm going to be fat forever. I managed to gain 5 lbs. this week. I didn't expect progress because of last week's limited activity and good food binge, but I didn't expect to gain 5 lbs. I ran/walked today. *sigh*

Got to run in Park City this weekend. I was excited to run in a new place. Especially after several days off due to a cut on my toe that prevented me from wearing shoes. The altitude caught me off guard a little. I didn't expect it to be much different. It was a great run! Lasted about an hour, however far that took me. Now I was up there for a girls' weekend get away, which was GREAT, however, I ate my weight in delicious foodstuffs. I was so tired that I didn't get up this morning to run either. I'll have to do better tomorrow.

I'm in a funk these days. Too much life. I slept in yesterday, and even though my husband was home, I skipped my run. My eating was okay though. This morning I got my butt kicked at Pilates. Now for the eating. Cream of Wheat for breakfast. We'll see how the rest of the day goes. I don't know if I have it in me today...

I am so tired of the limitations in my kitchen. I am tired of saying okay, I have this meat I can use for dinner, trying to find recipes for it and not having ingredients to make anything. I am so tired of having my cupboards void of things that should be staples in the kitchen; chicken broth (or even granuals for that matter), soy sauce, teriyaki, basil, canned beans, canned pineapple, mandarin oranges, chicken breasts, mushrooms, olives, parmesean (any kind of cheese but cheddar blocks)... the list goes on. Today, I was looking for something to make with sausage. Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING required a staple ingredient that I haven't had in my kitchen for months. We ended up with southern biscuits and gravy that are now residing like a lead brick in my stomach. How is one suppose to loose weight with this hurdle?

I ruined any good I did last week by looking for and making a doughnut recipe, that was irressistable. I made the recipe twice, once with my husband on Saturday night to see if it was any good, and again on Sunday with the kids. Great. Way. To. Go. So, I got up and went running this morning. Took a big break in the middle. I found a shady spot to pray and ponder over one of life's dilemmas, and then ran home. I made it up the dang hill! I had decided I wasn't going to eat any of the left over doughnuts, that decision lasted until I walked through the door. *sigh* The lack of will power is mind boggling.

I did kind of okay on my eating yesterday. Unless you count the four cookies I snitched, and the ice-cream I ate after dinner, oh and we went to a Chinese Buffet for our last date ever. It wasn't even good. Well, the ice-cream was. So were the cookies. Anyhoo... I went running this morning! Yeah for me! Somewhere between 3 and 4 miles. I did walk a chunk of it, but most of it was spent running.

Now for the eating portion of my day. It's such a long portion of the day. I started with a bowl of Raisin Bran, which I don't particularly like, but the only other option is Cheerios and that gets boring after a while. And it has more protein, but it also has higher mush potential. Bleh. The memory is getting worse as I type this. I think I may need something else to change the taste in the back of my throat.

I missed my exercise yesterday. I slept in because I was up so late the night before, and the evening was given to working at my little biz. Eating was not what it should have been either.

This morning I went to Zumba Toning. Eating well so far. We'll see if I can keep it up. 11:30 and I'm ready to run away from the children. Far, far, away...