Exercise:
39 minutes on the treadmill. Hopefully it did good for something other than my heart.

Breakfast:
baked oatmeal (1helping this time)
glass of milk

Lunch:
big salad full of good for me stuff: grilled chicken breast, romaine lettuce, spinach, carrot, red tomato, orange tomato, celery, a sprinkling of Parmesan cheese, topped with blush wine vinaigrette.
water

It was a big salad, and I still feel hungry. Hmmmm...

Snack:
none

Dinner:
made pancakes with apple topping. Not the healthiest, but at least I skipped the ones with M&M's in them.
1/2 c. fruit smoothie (by the way, a food processor does not substitute for a blender well)
glass of milk
a slice of ham (how random is that?)

Late Night:
OJ and all those danged pills!

I didn't make the smoothie last night. Too tired. I did eat the yogurt in an attempt to soothe my ice-cream cravings. Funny thing is, by the time I got around to eating it, I didn't really want it anymore, but I was too lazy to get up and put it away. How dumb is that?

This morning I didn't get up because I was holding a feverish child. Cadi came in at 4 am not feeling well. She was so restless. I was going to get up when my alarm went off, but she still hadn't settled down, so I cuddled her. She never really did fall into a sound sleep. I'll have to try and get something in during the day.

My legs are a bit sore from mowing the lawn yesterday. My knees are a little ouchy too. Who would have thought?

breakfast:
baked oatmeal with strawberries (I was not well disciplined and had two helpings.)

lunch:
roast beef and provolone sandwich, no mayo
apple
half a glass of light cranberry juice

snack:
a handful of yogurt covered raisins, and without even thinking I took a bite of my kid's pop-tart! Shameful! I don't know where my head went in that moment.

dinner:
ham and Swiss sandwich, no mayo
unsweetened pears

late night:
still wanted a smoothie. Realized I didn't have a blender anymore, washed the pills down my usual OJ.

Forget the Titles

I slacked off keeping a log over the last few days. In my defense I took one kid through a potty training crash course, had a sick baby, played the piano in stake conference, and sent my husband off on a business trip. I've been going solo for a couple days. I didn't get up on Saturday morning because I had been up until 3 am with the baby. I didn't get up Monday morning and exercise either because I was up with one kid or another for various reasons until 3 am. I was really tired. Sleep is healthy. I can say that I haven't had any snacks or desserts in a week. It's been hard. It's getting easier. The temptation is still there, but its not a constant urge. I guess I'm through the worst of the withdrawals. Now I'm afraid of ever eating anything sweet again. I'm afraid if I start I won't be able to stop.

This morning I didn't get up when my alarm went off out of laziness. Which is silly because I didn't really go back to sleep. I just laid there drifting in and out for the next hour and a half. So I wasn't expecting much, if anything when I weighed in today. Much to my surprise I'm down 3 lbs. Amazing! I have to admit that I'm not too excited yet. In my past weight loss attempts I'd loose a pound one week and it'd be back the next. If it's still gone next week I'll be happier. This did provide much needed motivation to hit the treadmill during the baby's morning nap.

exercise:
45 minutes on the treadmill at varying inclines, max 5% at up to 3.5 mph.
mowed the lawn (body feels tired)

breakfast:
1 bowl Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds


lunch:
leftover stuffed french bread (yum! probably not too healthy though)
apple

snack:
small handful of fruit and nut trail mix

dinner:
dry turkey and cheese sandwich
canned peaches (not the kind in syrup. These were floating around in no sugar added pear juice)

evening:
normally I'd wash my pills down with OJ, which I probably still will, but I'm thinking of making a fruit smoothie. No sugar added, just fruit and fat free yogurt. Mmmmm...

Four

The alarm didn't go off this morning. I just happened to wake up a little past 6:00 am. I debated not getting up, citing that I didn't have much time left. In the end I decided that 20-30 min. was better than nothing. It's really too bad I didn't get out earlier. The weather was perfect this morning! I managed a 30 minute walk.

Eating was kind of random today. I started potty training Camden so I ended up grabbing a bite of this, a bite of that throughout the day. I know I had oatmeal, strawberries, milk, cranberry juice, turkey, cheese, crackers, blueberry yogurt...at dinner I had an actual meal; broiled salmon, peas, some kind of pasta Chloe made on the side. I'm sure I'll have OJ with all the meds again this evening.

Three

I was really sluggish getting out of bed this morning. It took some convincing. I rolled out just before six and finally got out the door at ten after. There is a herd of cows living in a pasture near by. Usually you wouldn't know they were there unless you were walking by. Cows aren't particularly noisy. This morning there was a cow making a lot of noise. I first heard it several blocks away. As I got further along my route curiosity got the best of me and I changed course to pass the farm. I couldn't see the cow making all the noise. She was in the barn. I'm guessing she was calving (is this the season?). The rest of the herd was looking towards the barn and occasionally called out their encouragement. They all watched me as I passed by, seeming just as curious at this stranger as I was of them. I managed to get in a 50 minute walk. Closer to my one hour goal.

Breakfast:
bowl of baked oatmeal, four strawberries, a glass of 1% milk

Lunch:
leftover chicken and red potatoes (probably too many potatoes. I'll have to cut that kind of stuff out too.), salad.

Snack:
I found a bag of fruit and nut trail mix with no sugar added that I thought would be healthy-ish. I didn't realize until I'd eaten most of it that it was labeled for SIX servings. And if I'd thought about it, dried fruit is full of sugar on its own. Note to self: not a low calorie, low fat snack. I did NOT give in to the temptation of indulging in leftover Easter candy as I passed it out to my scouts. I still crave sugar like crazy.

Dinner:
bleh. Dinner. Nothing sounded good. I ended up with a conglomeration of things; a couple bites of leftover lasagna, a dry ham and cheese sandwich, a bite of a meatball, the rest of the trail mix. Entirely unsatisfying. Not too healthy either.

Late Night:
OJ to wash the pills down. Skipping chores. Try to get to bed early. Soooo tired!

Day Two

Got up this morning at 5:30 again. The wind was too fierce for my liking so I opted for the treadmill. Since it hasn't been used in well over a year I had to clear it off first. Fortunately that didn't take too long. I walked for 45 minutes at varying inclines up to 5%. My speed maxed at 3.3 mph. I felt like I was working. I was definitely sweating (Eeew)! I'd still like to get up to an hour. I need to not drag my feet when I first get up so I don't run out of time. I'll try again tomorrow.


Breakfast:
a banana, baked oatmeal (I cheated and had two helpings, but it's oatmeal! How bad can that be?), about a cup of strawberries

Lunch:
A turkey and Swiss sandwich on white bread, with lettuce and tomato, no mayo
carrot sticks on the side
blueberry yogurt (after I finished lunch the sweet cravings were killing me so I tried to soothe them with this. It didn't help)

Dinner:
Chicken with red potatoes and red peppers in some kind of cream sauce
vegetable filled salad

Late Night:
glass of orange juice to down my pills with

I really hate food being so much on the brain. I volunteered at the school carnival this afternoon and was surrounded by candy, cheesecake, ice-cream, snow cones... My kids had creamies in the back yard this afternoon, it was hard not to join them. I liked the sauce that came with dinner. It was hard not to take tastes here and there after I finished eating and while I was doing the dishes. I have a gazillion reasons why I should eat better and loose weight. Will it really happen? Is it really possible in the life of a mom? I'm feeling really overwhelmed today by the things I normally do, in combination with some extra tasks I've taken on, and extra tasks that have taken me. The tiredness from getting up early, and the constant cravings are only adding to it. Is my 45 minutes of exercise in the morning, and simply cutting back on how much and what I eat going to be enough to make a difference?

Day One

My first day attempting to get healthy. I can't say its been easy. Who'd have thought giving up sugar and snacking would be so hard. My body has been calling out for it all day long! It doesn't let up. I keep finding myself tempted to eat one treat. Surely one M&M wouldn't hurt. Would it? One teeny little peanut butter M&M? Ugh. I'm proud to say that it's 10:15 pm and I haven't cheated. One day down.

I can't say that I'm feeling hopeful. My past attempts have yielded me nothing, and after this last pregnancy I've got 20 more pounds tacked on to my weight loss goal. I don't feel the fire yet. I don't even want to do it tomorrow, but I will. Eventually I'll catch the spirit.

I've heard that you should keep a food journal when you're trying to loose weight. The prospect of counting all the calories in and out is entirely overwhelming to me. Not to mention it seems like a full time job. So I'm just going keep track of the food and exercise:

Breakfast:
A bowl of Frosted Mini Wheats
One banana

Lunch:
leftover grilled salmon, steamed broccoli and cauliflower, wild rice, a handful of grapes

Afternoon Snack:
Mixed berry yogurt and a couple of goldfish I snuck from my kids.

Dinner:
A bowl of spaghetti and meatballs with a sprinkle of Parmesan courtesy of my husband. One slice of sourdough bread.

Late Night:
a glass of orange juice to down my pills with

Hmmm.....where did the vegetables go? I'll have to do better on that tomorrow.

As for exercise I dragged myself out of bed at 5:30 am. I was sluggish, but eventually made it outside for a walk in the wind. I was aiming for an hour, but my route only lasted 40-45 minutes.